Randi on stage @ 1444 Market Street 1997

Randi on stage @ 1444 Market Street  1997
Randi on Stage 1997 at 1444 Market Street, SF, CA

Jack and yours truly today

Jack and yours truly today
Randi and Jack on the "Cadillac Campsite Tour"
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Welcome To Fifty Five Is The New!

Hello out there!
What's it to you, turning the age of Fifty-five? You don't have to be turning it tomorrow, you could have already turned that corner a while back. That part doesn't matter so much.
While it's important what one feels, what matters most of all that one feels, that one feels anything at all.
So, as an exercise in self-examination and a way of getting over an incredible writer's block, I submit this blog to the World Wide Web, and I submit myself to a bit of mirror gazing.
Inspired by the movie "Julie & Julia," I will blog for one year, which will include my turning fifty-five, and see what I find.
Who knows? Maybe fifty-five will be something fantastic...like the New Me.

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Saturday, August 7, 2010

S. F. Patients Memories

Randi and Jack with Kitty @ S.F. Patients' Co-Op 2005
Today it hit me again, that old memory tidal wave...thinking about the Co-Op.  There was so much good going on there, it breaks my heart that such a place doesn't exist anymore.

At least to my knowledge.  If anyone knows anything different, any where in the world, please let me know.

Mind you, there are some very specific elements about the Co-Op.  It was patient owned, patient operated...we were very concerned about the people we served because we were the people we served.  We weren't in it for the money, it was actually set up as a legal, secular nonprofit service agency. 

We encouraged creativity, community and compassion....actually our motto was Compassion, Hospitality and Service...and we took it all very seriously. 

Anybody out there doing this sort of thing?  We sure need it!

The picture enclosed is from one of our many functions, I think this was an Open Mic (which we held every Friday night). 

Friday, August 6, 2010

Miracle

Golden Gate Park Waterfall  by rcw
Time passes, sometimes too swiftly for us to notice and other times far too slowly, almost painfully.  Just yesterday I was 12, 19, 30.....now I am 55, still working on making dreams come true.

In days gone by, fifty five meant that a person should be thinking seriously about their retirement finances, not still working on goals...but that was then.

Now, we are much younger than our predecessors....fifty five is more like thirty, thirty more like twenty and so on. 

My younger years were interrupted by mental illness, but I'm not crying about it!  To the contrary! I am grateful to have so much more experience under my belt...I am ready to work and understand the value of concentrated effort.  I've seen it work in my own life, repeatedly.

Miracles do happen, but we have to be ready for them...ready to accept them, and the responsibility that accompanies them. That's the part we humans tend to forget; I know.  I've forgotten that aspect of miracles in life, and am trying to rectify that now.

 Gratitude to the Cosmos isn't enough, though it is a good start.  We have to nurture our miracles, keep their energy alive in our lives, cherish their existence and tithe for those less fortunate whenever possible.  That doesn't always mean money; a kind deed goes a long way.

But anyway, for today Fifty Five is the New Miracle....just look around, they happen every day!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Furniture As Memory

We "inherited" some bedroom furniture from Jack's mother; the usual dresser, chest of drawers thing.  The set also included one of those big framed mirrors, the kind most folk hang over the dresser.  The pair looked nice in their special corner of the room.  Once outfitted with a hand embroidered doily and favorite lamp the whole thing looked downright elegant!

It reminded me of the bedroom my sister Carolyn and I shared many years ago; memories of her whispered boyfriend secrets, attempts at teaching me make-up tricks and so on. We didn't always get along back then, I was so much younger than her.  But still, we had more good times than bad, supported one another whenever we could and have grown even closer through the years.

She was the oldest of us five kids and had the honored distinction of official ice-breaker and envelope stretcher when she wasn't being drafted as chief baby sitter.  It can't have been easy, my teenage sister playing mother hen to four youngsters of various ages.  But she survived, as did we.  It wasn't long before her former charges were off to their own adventures.

By the time I was old enough to want to spread my wings a bit, Carolyn had already tested the waters and gotten our parents up to speed on some of the usual coming of age scenarios.  Curfews, boys, dances and so on were already worn down from  "issues" to "understandings."  So, I made my own mistakes, broke new ground and all that.  I'm sure a good bit of Mom's then-greying hair was brought on by my growing pains and gains.

That bedroom set stayed behind when my sister married and moved to Alaska.  I moved too, into a smaller room so my brothers could have a bit more space.  It was nice having my own room, however tiny.  I learned to love solitude,  and appreciated the time I had when the only noises in my head were my own.  I spent hours writing, learning guitar and drawing or painting.  We didn't have a lot of things like some of the other kids; no personal phones or expense accounts or even allowances.  What we did have, even in spite of some pretty heavy differences, was and remains a loving, loud, big family.  And for that I am eternally grateful.

So, as I look over at Jack's mom's dresser and mirror, I am brought back to my growing-up days....my sister's hairspray, my own tie dyed style sans make-up and what seems now to have been a much more innocent time.    Here's to those memories!

There's some good news to report on the music front-I finally figured out how to use some of the recording equipment we collected through the years!  So tomorrow we'll be doing some actual multi-track recording in our home studio!
I promise to upload a few samples once they're done!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Times Remembered

Helping Jack sort out his family's things with his sister Carole.  Watching them go through the various things....listening to their memories as they go down the litany of half forgotten neighborhood families, friends and distant relatives.

Their stories remind me of my own; and make me think to the day when my own siblings and I will be gathered 'round the boxes of photos and other things, laughing and misting over in our eyes as our memories take us back.

Were we really ever that young?  Will we ever feel that way again? 

So for today, Fifty Five Is The New Times Remembered...Back then, when the world was a simple place to be.

Monday, August 2, 2010

The New Day

Greening   Fractal by rcw
Here it is, almost five in the morning and I'm sitting here trying to get a !@&##!?!@!#! file printed.
Well, at least there's the opportunity to write, which is okay for an insomniac like moi. It really wouldn't be all that bad if it weren't for the need of that blankity-blank graphic! Oy!

Guess I could take the easy way out and just use this time as a gripe-fest; an easy thing to do. But time is a precious commodity, even for those who burn the candle at both ends.

We've been suffering the financial crunch like everyone else, and like everyone else have been trying to find ways to keep afloat....it ain't easy on what we got but at least we got each other.

I don't know what to make of the world today....it's nothing like when we were growing up; makes me wonder how kids these days survive it all.  And then I have to laugh, for sounding so much like my parents did when we were growing up. Of course, our parents were too busy being confused by us trying to take over the world.

I'm going to keep this blog entry short....we all know things are hard these days, no need to belabor the idea.  But I'll end it with a prayer that things get better, that we learn to be responsible and humane...and that we get through this mess.

So for today, Fifty Five Is The New Day, because as long as the sun rises there's a new day ahead to make things better.
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